Pink vs Blue

Original image by Moon-WillowStock NOTE: The following post contains non-graphic mention of child abuse and rape. There are two parts of me that have been in a long drawn-out fight. I’ll call them Blue Girl and Pink Girl. They split and became separate people during a very tumultuous period in our life. Their feud was …

Journey to the Present

Original photo by Amor-Fati-Stock NOTE: The following post contains vague mention of child abuse. Also lots of positive self-care experiences. Sometimes the child parts of me don’t know that things have changed since the body was their age. They were frozen in time by the trauma. I would experience something traumatic, that part of me …

Healing the Inner Child and the Infantilization of Women

Original photo by EK-StockPhotos NOTE: This post discusses kink, ageplay, and abuse recovery. I received a question from raw-noize-slut on Tumblr, after writing about putting my hair in pigtails, and thought my answer deserved publishing here. This was her question: I’ve heard many Trans people talk about reliving childhood either because 1. Hormones are giving …

The Tide

NOTE: This post mentions disability caused by mental illness. I have phases where my mental illness is barely noticeable. My PTSD comes and goes like the tide, except these tides last for months. I have long stretches of time where the tide is low, and I function like any “normal” human being. During these periods …